Alec McDowell//X5-494

When I first met Rachel everything she knew me as was a lie. My life. My profession. Even my name. She fell in love with that facade and I fed into it. Maybe at first it was an order, but the longer I was near Rachel, the more I felt for her. Feelings I had never felt before, things I didn't understands. They weren't things I was designed for. They were viewed as weaknesses and they knew it. I remember each time she kissed me it seemed like my heart beat quicker and when she told me she loved me it was going over time. I didn't know what to do or say and I saw that expectant look on her face. Just willing me to say something, anything so she didn't feel stupid and all i could say was I liked her a lot. She smiled satisfied with that and I so did like to see her smile. Then the disaster of the explosion and the stab I felt at believing I lost her. That I had lost the one thing that made me actually feel like I meant something.

Then the tormenting started. The piano music on the phone. I had thought I was losing my mind. Then going back to the Berrisford Estate her father trying to kill me. Max helping even if I hadn't wanted it. Then Rachel. My beautiful Rachel laying there in a coma. Something that was my fault. I had caused it. I was able to say my goodbyes. Let her know how I felt. Let her know I was sorry. Then a few days later she died.

Or so I thought.

It would be a year later after Rachel died. A year of me mourning her that I'd run across her again. To find out her death, all of it had been a lie. I told her everything. My name. My real life. Why I was really at her home. That her and her father became targets and when I couldn't do it my handlers set the bomb off. I remember the sting as her hand slapped me across the face. The vemon in her words as she told me she hated me and never wanted to see me again. I heard the hurt in her voice and I knew to leave her be. Six months passed before I'd ever see Rachel Berrisford again. She called me to come to Paris and I went. There was no second guessing.

Now we are married, and she is carrying my child. Even through my disguise, and all the lies i had to tell her she still loves me for the man I am. She makes me a better person.

Alec McDowell 'X5-494' // Dark Angel // 451 Words

( Rachel Berrisford. That was my loaded gun. )

Alec McDowell 'X5-494' // Dark Angel // 432 words

Let's see these could be tricky. Picking out the people I'd jump in front of and take a bullet for, and the people I'd rather just put a bullet in the head of. Here we go with my lists.

I'd take a bullet for:

Max, Rachel (man let someone try and hurt her, I'd rip them apart.), Syl, Krit, Jondy, Zane, Ben, Zack, Jace, Logan, Brin, Joshua, Devon, Lane, Sam, Tinga, Anyone else that's my family or someone I or they care about. Simple enough those people I'd go down bleeding for. No second thoughts and no regrets.

I'd love to put a bullet in:
Ames White, Renfro, Colonel Lydecker, That stupid cult, Anyone dumb enough to try and hurt someone I care about and love, or those I care abour care for. The idiots that beat Biggs to death and strung him up.

Simple enough lists right? I think everyone can say they have people they'd take a bullet for, and lists of people they'd love to put one in. Though I gather most people's lists of who'd they'd put a bullet in would be longer then the take a bullet for list. I come from a big family and we'd be here all day if I tried to name all of them.

Alec McDowell 'X5-494' // Dark Angel // 209 words

My greatest ambition in life is to see the transgenics have the rights that Ordinaries have. That we can live freely and not have to hide out behind the walls of Terminal City. I know it will take awhile. I know we are disliked because we are infused with animal DNA. Most people don't see the fact none of us asked for this. I didn't walk in and say hey infuse my DNA with feline DNA. We were victims of a government experiment.

All I can do is stand up for our rights. Let people see we aren't a danger to them and all we want is the same thing they do. A change to live our lives, raise children, and do what we want with our lives. To have the jobs we want. Most importantly we want our children to grow up safe, and to be able to live outside of having to hide.

Alec McDowell // Dark Angel // 155 Words

The best thing in the world is waking up next to Rachel Berrisford every morning. Laying in her arms at night. Holding her warm body close to mine and feeling her snuggle into me. Placing my hand down on her stomach and feeling that bump that swells a bit more it seems. Feeling our baby move when my hand is there. Feeling her place her hand over mine when it's on her stomach. The smile on her face as she leans into me and kisses me. Looking down at our hands and seeing the wedding rings. Knowing I married the most important person in my life. That is the best thing in the world. Knowing I have my own family. That I am more then a genetically enhanced super soldier.

Being free to be who I am. Free to have love. Free to have children. Free to do what I want.

Alec McDowell // Dark Angel // 151 Words

Serendipity? Easy enough for me to talk about seeing as it pretty much means finding something that you like without having been looking for it. The one thing that comes to mind automatically that fits that. Meeting Rachel Berrisford and falling in love. I went in there on a simple mission to find out about Robert Berrisford and how much he knew concerning Manticore and their genetic experiments. To do so easy, play nice piano teacher with his daughter.

Then I saw Rachel that first time and right there I think was the end. We hadn't even talked but she had my attention. Maybe at first it was me being a typical guy. She was hot and female. Instincts for me and my siblings is strong. As I got to know her I could feel how I felt changing even if I didn't understand what I was feeling. We weren't engineered for that. I knew I was in love with her the moment she told me she loved me.

How things went down in the end hurt more then anything. Rushing out and being too late. Thinking Rachel was gone and being dragged away. Having them detonate the bomb instead just so it was done. Just the whole meeting Rachel, falling in love, and realizing I was more then Manticore allowed me to be, that is Serendipity right there.

Alec McDowell // Dark Angel // 229 Words

If I created a perfect world Joshua he could stroll right on down to the store and buy himself some strawberry shortcakes and head right on back home. The kicker? No one would care he had canine features, and no one would try attacking him because he was different. See in my perfect world there wouldn't be a need for Terminal City because we wouldn't have to hide. We'd be accepted out in Ordinary society with open arms.

We could have jobs anywhere we wanted. We could live right next door to them and not have a worry. Our kids would never have to worry about being hurt because of what they are. They'd never have to deal with what we have. I like the sound of that. I hope that happens someday, maybe not for my children but maybe my grandchildren. Who knows right?

That would be my perfect world though. A world where we are able to have the same hopes and dreams, the same rights that the Ordinaries have. Maybe it's too much to hope for but we did say perfect world right?

Though come to think of it this question is flawed for one simple reason. Nothing is perfect.

Alec McDowell||X5-494 // Dark Angel // 200 words

Alec was trying his best to make up everything with Rachel and he swore the girl was testing him. He had told her she could choose where they went and when she said the carnival he was amused. He'd never been to one and wasn't sure about all the rides but he'd manage. There was one ride he saw as soon as he came in he told himself there was no way in hell he was getting on. The carousel, those plastic little horses going up and down. God he thought people on that thing sitting on those horses looked ridiculous. They went through got cotton candy and which was interesting to him. He didn't even have to chew the stuff it just dissolved on his tongue but he could taste the sugar and liked the sweetness.

He was watching Rachel laughing and giggling having a good time. Then it happened. He felt himself stiffen and his blood run cold. She wanted to go on the carousel. Oh god. She even had the horses they'd sit on already picked out. A nice graceful looking white horse for Rachel, and right next to it a regal proud looking brown one for Alec. He groaned inwardly and looked at her to tell her no only to be met by her pouting and saying that he promised to do anything she wanted to do. The girl knew how to use his words against him that was for sure.

So he reluctantly went in the line and went on with her she was delighted when she ran and claimed to the two horses she wanted and he went climbing on it. God how he hoped Max wouldn't find her way here. He'd never live it down.

Alec McDowell||X5-494 // Dark Angel // 290 words

Fuck yes it is. I learned that a long time ago after meeting Rachel Berrisford. That girl knocked me all kinds of sideways. She turned my world upside down and man I didn't care. I liked it and wanted more. When I was around her it felt like I couldn't breathe, my heart would be pounding so hard I'd hear it in my ears. I was so naive I didn't know what was hitting me until it was already there. The anticipation of seeing her again, counting away the minutes until her lessons, leaning into her just to be close, just to catch her scent.

When she'd leave after the lesson was over I'd stay in the room sitting at the piano with my eyes closed reveling in her lingering scent until it was time to go back to work. I hated the lie after awhile, hated not being Simon. I hated being X5-494 and not Simon Lehane because I so much really wanted to be the man she loved and not the killer I really was. I tried to be the man she loved.

I tried to fight for her life, I spoke out to spare her but was silenced. Then I tried completing my mission, but when I saw her getting ready for school I risked everything to try and warn her.

So yes love is worth fighting for, and if I had the chance to do it over? I would have died instead of Rachel.


Alec McDowell
Dark Angel
245 Words

Now see I'd say dreaming is for idiots, or I would have before. Bunch of people going wah wah wah I wish, I want, I need. Yeah I used to think that way, then I met Max. Now the girl can be a pain in the ass, a lot, but she has some amazing thoughts. I've found myself with my own now, it's kind of weird but I like it.

See now I dream about us Transgenics getting all the rights and joys the Ordinaries have. Free to walk anywhere we want without the whole "Kill the freaks" signs being waved and held up. We can get married, have families, and work wherever we want. And my buddy Joshua? He could just go all happy go lucky down the street without people trying to throw stuff at him, or snap pictures to sell to those idiotic tabloid papers about the dog man attacks or some shit. He's not a walking freak show for people to just oggle. He's a sweet guy but because he is big, damn is he big, and tall, and the way he looks people think him a monster.

[locked from everyone]

Why we are on the topic of dreams. I'd dream that all that shit with Rachel had gone differently. That I managed to save her life, and that she didn't just die in a coma. I'd dream she was right here with me. I know it's crazy because she is gone, but that's what dreams are. A way to wish for those things you really desire. We'd be married, maybe a kid on the way. Things that can never happen because Rachel is gone.

[unlocked]

Alec McDowell
Dark Angel
276 Words

Name's Alec. Alec McDowell to be exact. I've gone by a few names really. There was my least favorite X5-494, Monty Cora though that was my boxing name, then Alec thanks to my buddy Max based off smart aleck, hey beats her second choice, Dick. I know the numbers might have you confused and for now I'll just let them unless you know Max you might know what they mean.

just your average guy. Bike messenger extraordinaire.


Alright truth be told I'm not so normal I'm a genetic cocktail gone crazy. Human DNA with a dash of kitty. Fun yes? I'm faster, stronger, and yeah I'll just shut up.

Like I said it's Alec. Though I've been x5-494 for most of my creation..


I'm 23, I love funny witty women, and long walks on the beach. Interested?

Kidding.



Want to know somethng? Ask. You might get an answer.


Alec is from James Cameron's Dark Angel, He can be a smartass........at times. Okay yeah given his name you can be pretty sure he's like that....a lot. aHe is open for roleplay and talking. Sure if you ask about the numbers he'll brag about what he is.

Hurting Rachel Berrisford.

See you'll need the backstory to that one. See Manticore had fun using us to clean up their problems, it was my job. I was good at it. It was an easy enough assignment too.

Target Robert Berrisford, age 56, widower, a young daughter, Rachel Berrisford, age 17. I went in as her piano instructor Simon Lehane. Simple find out what he knew about Manticore. What I didn't expect was Rachel to throw my entire world into a whirlwind. We got close, closer then I had ever been with someone. She got to me somehow and I never saw that one coming.

I was engineered to get in get the job done and get out. No emotional attachments. It's why we were made. We were conditioned to not give a fuck. With Rachel though, it was different. I found myself wanting to be near her. I remember when we kissed the first time, she told me she loved me. Those three words caught me so off guard it wasn't funny. I knew the feeling, I felt it, but all i could muster was an awkward I like you a lot. Not one of my more suave moments.

When i got the orders to terminate Berrisford, oddly I had no problem with it, until they said the daughter too. I couldn't, the thought broke my heart. I agreed though, it was my mission. Things went fine until I looked up and saw her getting ready for school. My heart caught in my throat and I knew I couldn't let her get hurt. I was willing to endure whatever punishment Manticore had to offer to just keep her safe.

I didn't do that well enough. Rachel ended up in a coma, and two years later when I found out. I went to see her, that would be the last time I saw Rachel. She died soon after. I had toi wonder if she was waiting for me to come, waiting to hear my voice. So in her own way she could forgive me, or rest peacefully. That's my regret however. Not keeping the woman I fell in love with safe and secure. I lost her and all because my mind was so clouded by Manticore. They tried making me forget, and you'd think I would try and get away. Instead I stayed and took what they taught me until Max came and got me out.

Alec McDowell||X5-494
Dark Angel
401 words